I'm Lost...

Life is full of choices.

Unfortunately, I suck at making choices.

If you read my posts, you know that I am extremely indecisive.

This is because, I fear the consequences.

I believe..

  good choices lead to good consequences and bad choices lead to bad consequences.

I am so bloody scared of making the wrong choice.

Lately, I have been struggling over a very important decision.

Deciding the plans for my future.

When it comes to planning my future, particularly deciding my career, a few factors run through my mind...

Family

Living in an Asian household, it is extremely important to be an honor to one's family. 

I want to make my family proud. 

Of course, like most [Asian] parents, my parents would love me to become a doctor or lawyer..

My parents struggled so much to give me these opportunities.

Though I know my parents will love & support me no matter what decision I make,

I feel that if I don't accomplish their wishes, I am letting them down.

.

Money

Isn't this the reason why most of us work?

Money is vital.

How else am I gonna support my materialistic needs? :D

Furthermore, I want to give back to my parents.

I know I can never fully repay the money & efforts my parent's have invested in me, but my biggest wish is to buy my parents their dream home & pay for my little brother's school tuition.

Also, I am extremely independent.

I want to make my own money and  not need to depend on others. 

[But, billionaire boyfriends are still gladly accepted]

.

Happiness

The majority of a working person's day is spent in the work space or thinking about work.

If I am not happy with my job, how can I be happy with my life?

I want to be interested in my work.

I want to wake up, and look forward to attending my job.

I want to live happy and excited.

Currently, I am attending University.

However, I have no clear direction of where I'm headed.

I feel like I'm wasting money and time.

The 3 factors keep clashing and conflicting in my head. 

HELP!

Tell me,

When it comes to deciding your future, 

what is most important to you?

Jessica Mai.

A Little Puff of Heaven

Hello Lovelies!

I hope everyone is having a pleasant week, so far.

Unfortunately, I am drowning in work, work and more work.

As a result, for the past few days, I have been jailed in my room and chained to my blah and boring school textbooks (i wouldn't mind being chained to books of my choice) .

To make matters worse, I haven't been feeling well lately and I think its the FLU (Joy!) or just my body rebelling from the lack of sleep.

On a happier note, Mother Nature has been providing Vancouver with beautiful weather , as of late. Although my aching body has been slaving over papers and assignments, I am quite enjoying the natural light shining in from my window.

Sunny weather in January is a rare occurrence in Vancouver. For this reason, yesterday, I decided to unfasten my chains, leave my books behind, and walk outside to soak up some sun....mmm VITAMIN D!

Although the sun was shining bright, the air was still very chilly. I don't mind, because that means i get to LAYER, LAYER, LAYER!!

Sorry, the pictures aren't too clear. I underestimated the bright sun combined with the flash on my camera.

Mai Outfit:

Comfy, Sunny Vancouver, Casual

Tallulah Cream tank

AE striped sweater

Off The Wall grey leggings

Danier grey leather jacket

Le Chateau ballerina pink scarf & black wedges

After my week-long isolation from society, where is the first place i make a b-line to?

Obviously, BEARD PAPA!!!!!

"A LITTLE PUFF OF HEAVEN" should be their slogan.

mmmmmmmmmm!

You would think I would do something physically active,like bike or gym, after a week of sitting on my big behind...Pfft! Naw!

Gimme Gimme, Cream Puffs!..pls?

& Back to the books I go!

Enjoy the rest of your week :)

-Jess Mai

"And it's harder than you think to delay the sadness"

The only good thing about waking up at 5AM to a blaring alarm, 

bussing 1.25hrs in a stinky bus, 

and listening to a MONOTONE professor drone on about whatever is...

is. 

there was something...

Ah! Yes.

...

is seeing the gorgeous sunrise this morning.

That is all though. Nothing else.

----------------->

MAI OUTFIT

This is typically what I wear to school: 

Just casual, comfy and "vanilla". 

In other words, boring!

Ta-Da

Forever21 tank top, Zara sweater, Tallulah leggings, BCBG boots, Coach handbag

Oh, and my 4 school books. Do not let their thin and small appearance fool you. They cost me a fortune!!

I have spent $300 on school books, this week, and I have 2 more to purchase. Ay yai-yai!!

Since I didn't have enough $$ to buy my other 2 books, I decided to pick up a little something, I could afford, from my wishlist.

Mac Florabundance lipglass!
Mai thoughts:

-Very sticky when applied, but soon adheres to lips.
-Pleasant vanilla scent.
-From the tube, I would describe the colour as peachy, pale-pink.
-The colour, as described above, looks amazing in the tube. However, worn alone, on my pigmented lips, it looks pasty and too nude.. completely washing me out.
-I do believe it will pair well with lipstick (I'll experiment tmrw).

so far..

3/5

pucker up & MUAHH!

Empty Pockets

new school semester = empty pockets

:(

At the moment, I have 0 dallas to satisfy my shopping cravings.

Fank-yew school tuition and textbooks!!!!!

However, once I gain the funds, the following shall be mine.

BUA HA HA HAH aha.. hehe :)

• Aritzia floral leggings
  
• Hunter rubber boots 
  
• & MAC florabundance lipglass
  

That is all.... for now! >:)